My niece had her 1st birthday party this Saturday. She will actually turn one on Tuesday. Her birthday party was super cute. Her mom and grandma did a really good job.
I read bits and pieces of a book this morning that talked about even when you have children you never really get over infertility...it is always a part of you. . . especially if you end up adopting and never have biological children. I never really thought about this. I always knew it would be hard to make the step to adopt, but didn't think about how I'd continue to grieve the loss of having biological children. It does make sense tho.
Jeremy said its not fair that some of our friends get pregnant so easy and we keep waiting. He doesn't talk much about infertility. He tries to focus on what we do have, and we do have alot. It was good for me to see that sometimes he struggles too with this even tho he doesn't talk about it much.
We spent all the money we had saved for our first IUI treatment. Just here and there...nothing really major. I'm not sure how we'll have the money in time, but God will provide away. We are definetly not struggling for money at the moment. We just have not made very wise choices. . . part of the reason is shopping has given me something to take my mind off being barren...
As to my cycle...provera finally worked and I'm on day three of a brand new cycle...meaning Aunt Flo is here!!!! I'm not taking any fertility drugs again this cycle. Pray that I ovulate anyways and we have a healthy baby (babies :) implant despite all our health issues. Haha...seriously would be the biggest miracle if we got pregnant and stayed pregnant...with his sperm, my lack of cervical fluid, my ovulation issues, and potential endrometriosis...God has done bigger tho (curing my dad of cancer) He has been cancer free for a year now! Praise the Lord!
We have our specialist consultation in 2.5 weeks. Pray for God's direction and guidance. Pray for a natural miracle(s) to still occur. Pray for God's provision for treatment and medication money...they we are good stewards of that money when it arrives. . . Mostly for God's will to be done in our lives.
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"Those who are wise will shine like the brightness of the heavens, and those who lead many to righteousness, like the stars for ever and ever."Daniel 12:3
1 comment:
Jess, continuing to pray for you two!
I wanted to comment on the "you never really get over infertility". While, I was able to have biological children, I do agree with this statement. Having IF changed me forever. But now that I am a mommy, I mostly see those changes as positive. IF gave me a greater understanding of motherhood, a deeper appreciation for motherhood once it came, and a big heart for others struggling through it, along with understanding suffering more. I feel blessed to have gone through IF. Blessed beyond measure.
One of my prayers for you is that once you are looking back at IF after you are a mommy, you will feel the same.
To God be the glory!
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