Today I am praising God I'm not pregnant...it is soooo hot outside!!! Although I think if I was I'd blow money I don't have on a cheap window ac unit.
Right now is a time of change. . . searching for the perfect job...trusting God to provide for our finances, again. I've also come to a cross roads with my house keeping skills or lack thereof. If I don't get over my issues with this and just do it even if I'm sick or tired or hot...I may never have kids. . . I need to love my husband. I need to work on the last thing God told me to do when I asked for guidance....seek first the kingdom of God and the rest shall be added.... like babies... and a job...etc...
This season of baby showers and pregnancy announcements has been filled with so much grace. Since God's timing isn't today for us I believe that He put so many road blockers in our journey to parenthood that the only conceivable way I'd be pregnant is if he literally zapped a baby into my tummy... my body isn't working quite right, our finances are just not there while I look for work. . . we are going through counseling for various reasons. Knowing that this second isn't the right time makes it easier to go to baby shower after baby shower or see my friend's tummy's get bigger and bigger... The Lord knows what he is doing. He has a perfect plan for our family... sometimes I wish I knew what it was...but then other times I think I'd go crazy with worry if I knew all the trials that would come in my life.
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Love this update Jess. Thanks for sharing your heart. I see God working in your heart and in your life and it is such a blessing and encouragement to me!
Thinking of you always! It seems you know exactly what you are doing. I love that you are putting your trust in God. I think that if you take your mind off of ttc for a little bit, you'll get what you want ;). I talked to my ob and she said that the stress of ttc is so bad that it prevents people from conceiving.
I pray that you feel peace from Him and He blesses you with what you need. Hopefully that need is a newborn or two!
Good luck with the months ahead. I'm praying for you: a new job, closer with DH, and a healthy body to carry a bundle. ((((hugs))))
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