8 days past ovulation

8 days past ovulation...I was stupid I know...and I peed on a stick after I got home from work at about 6pm...a. way way too early to tell and b. not first morning urine..I fall in the category of "willing" a line on the stick...almost to the point of drawing a second line on the stick as if that will automatically make me pregnant.../sigh. God is big. . . one day a time with this and the rest of my life.

Dillusional? Wishful?

I really think I am pregnant. I'm only 7 days past ovulation tho...so I can't even think to get a positive test for a whole week. I prayed today and asked God to give me peace about being pregnant if I was or give me a super un-peace about it if I wasnt....and I just had more peace... I can't explain it but I really think I am pregnant...is that wierd? Maybe this is just the act of a desperate woman...but usually when I want something really bad and God says no I know...I just know...like a few months ago when I had the chemical pregnancy...I just knew. I had dreams about miscarriages it was the wierdest thing. I kept hearing evil voices in my head saying I was going to miscarry. This cycle I keep hearing that this is the cycle for us and we are NOT going to miscarry and we are going to have children from this cycle. Anyways....I'll write here when I find out I am pregnant. Blessed by Jehovah provider of all things.

Praise God ovulation confirmed

Today my temperature rose for the third day in a row...at 97.8 today! Fertility Friend (body temp tracker) confirmed that I ovulated on day 21 of my cycle or rather on Thursday. I am now officially in my "two weeks waiting". We did marital activities within the "window" but not on the day of ovulation. Long story that I acquaint with an unexplainable God thing.

no temp rise yet.

No temp rise yet...hopefully soon...everything has a time and a place...I know...just have to put one foot in front of the other and take it one day a time or a minute at a time...

my poor husband has been terribly sick the last few days...he really wants a baby too or else we would have had a week of abstinence. I can't wait till we don't "have" to do marital activities anymore.

No pain no gain :)

I praise the Lord for the pain in both my ovaries right now and the bloating and I praise Him for my boob pain as well. I know these things are healthy signs of a good ovulation and that and then some healthy twins are what I am praying for this cycle. Blessed be the Lord.

Another positive ovulation Praise God.

Sooo...drum roll.... positive ovulation kit test last night...and again this morning although last night was definitely darker. I am super excited. I have an incredible peace this month/cycle. God is at work. He always is at work...but I very much believe that this month I will get pregnant and stay pregnant this time.

Blessed be Jehovah my provider.

Catch up

Soo much has happened since I last posted in this journal. I had a "chemical pregnancy" the beginning of August. (the egg fertilized but didn't implant). My husband and I named the child Oscar. It was good to know that I was capable of getting pregnant. The cycle after that I didn't ovulate and now I am currently on cycle day 19, waiting to ovulate. . . We are now on our tenth month of trying to conceive. TEN MONTHS!!!!! So many people try for so much longer.

I pee'd on the opk today and no second line... I am discouraged, but not completely. I have peace this cycle that this is the time we will concieve. Regardless I am not patient and want to be pregnant yesterday!