Cough Syrup

Cough syrup is suppose to help increase quality cervical mucus. Since this is one of my fertility problems I decided to try it. I hate cough syrup tho so this should be interesting. I get to take this three times a day until after I ovulate :) I wasn't going to do anything until we did IUI but I bought this on a whim at the grocery store today. God knows if it will work or not :)

You'll find out if a baby or two come of it.

The Twelve Week Plan

1. Change Diet & Excercise:

- For the next 12 weeks Jeremy and I will be doing body for life. We did this before we got married and I lost 40 lbs in 8 weeks...


2. Vitamins: Jeremy will be taking fertilaid for men for the next 12 weeks. This is suppose to help make his swimmers stronger
In addition to my prenatal vitamins I will also be taking vitex and red clover.

3. IUI:

Jeremy just got an unexpected bonus from work (PRAISE GOD) so we plan on scheduling our first iui in 12 weeks. For those of you who don't know...iui is when the dr. washes your husband's sperm sample and injects the good sperm into you ideally around the time you ovulate since washed sperm can only surrive around 8 hours.

Jeremy and I will be praying about God's plan through this time, and afterwards whatever happens. Right now Jeremy only wants to do one IUI. He says if the iui treatment is not sucessful that he wants to save for IVF...which could take us forever and a day :) It is at LEAST $15,000. Not pocket change for us. However, if God leads us through our time of prayer to do more IUI treatments, or no treatments...or hopefully getting pregnant before treatment or pregnant through iui we will obviously be open to what God wants whatever that means.

For now we have a 12 week plan. It should be an interesting ride.

Answered Prayer

I'm not pregnant, I don't even know if I'll ever get to be pregnant... for now I am thanking God for the prayers he has answered.

Last Monday I broke down on the way home from speaking to a legal recruiter. I told God that I was jobless and childless...that the doctor said I needed IUI to get pregnant and I could not do IUI until I got a job...with the job market the way it is I felt hopeless. I also mentioned to God that my husband would not let us start the adoption process until after we try IUI AND IVF. He really really wants his own biological child. . . So do I, but I think I mostly want to be a mother.

Well...right when I got home I plugged in my cell phone and on my voice mail was a job offer. I took it of course.

So even tho I am still childless, I am no longer jobless. Praise God! Which means...that in addition to not having to forclose on our house, we will begin saving for the consultation and first IUI treatment.

I am not sure how I'll fit infertility treatment into a new job, but I know God will work it out.

This cycle we are taking off fertility drugs again. Maybe we won't even need IUI :)

BOO Aunt FLO go away come back in nine months, OK?

Soo...my period started today. BOO!!! What is crazy is that for the first time in forever I have yet to cry over her coming.

Why? I'm not quite sure...a big reason is that I'm sooo super excited over starting my new job that I have not even thought about the sorrow of what I don't have this month.

Praise the Lord for the joy that he brings.

LOVE

"I have found the one whom my soul loves" Song of Solomon 3:4

Jeremy is amazing. I am so blessed to be married to him. Today he told me that even if we have to give up the internet to pay for daycare he would rather have a baby now then later. Those of you who know him know what a big deal that statement is. My husband...the computer guru would rather give up the internet then not have a baby.


I love you Jeremy! I know I don't show you enough, but I am very blessed to be married to you.

Baby Names

Much before Jeremy and I started trying to get pregnant we had our baby names picked out. There have been times when I have tried to deviate from our planned names and he insists that these are our kids names. :)

We wanted a letter theme...I liked alot of E names....so we intend to have all of our children's names start with E. I'm a matchy matchy kind of person.

Girl Names:

1. Eleanor Lorraine (Lorraine is my middle name and my mother's middle name...we thought it would be special to continue on the family tradition for our first daughter). Eleanor...because I love the name...it means Light...and Lorraine means battle....Light in Battle...I forsee my future daughter being a light in battle for the souls of men and women.

2. Eternity Faith- This isn't a family name...but our faith is very important to both of us and we thought it would be neat to have a daughter that exemplies this in her name...the middle name is not set in stone....we also like Grace.

3. Elenia Grace- We have a close family friend named Eleni. I just love her name and Jeremy likes the addition of the a sound.

BOY NAMES

1. Ezekiel Jeremy- Jeremy wants his first son to have his first name as his middle name since Jeremy's middle name is Kirk (his dad's first name). I love the name Ezekiel...a prophet in the old testemant. Not alot of boys have this name...We'd call him Zeek has a nickname.

2. Elijah Jesse- If we have more then one boy we would like this to be his name. Jesse was my grandpa's first name...He was a very special influence in my life and is now with the Lord. I would like to honor him in this small way.

3. Entrari - this is a name of one of Jeremy's everquest (online game) characters...we like the way it sounds.

Now we just need the babies to go with the names. My entire life I grew up praying that I'd have ALL girls. After we started trying I had a dream that we were going to have two boys and one girl. God has given me a strong desire to have a boy first...which is totally wierd considering that I grew up not wanting any boys... (had a crazy brother).

I'll be happy with healthy babies :)

Peeonastickaholic

So...Jeremy says I need to get some serious help! :) Almost every cycle I start peeing on a stick at 7dpo when normal people just barely start getting a positive test at 10dpo....and most people not untill 14dpo or more...I want to KNOW if I am haha.... I know it won't be positive untill God wants us to know...but I still pee...This cycle I peed on a stick at 6dpo lol and then at 8dpo and today at 9dpo.

Up untill 11dpo I am still totally happy with a negative test...but after that I break down and cry if its negative. I become depressed for almost an entire week...and then by the end of my menstral cycle I stop dwelling on it and move on with my life...This happens every cycle tho. Jeremy asked me if I'll be sad this cycle if I'm not pregnant. I said, "Of course...but I'll get over it and move on with my life." I know God has a plan for us. I really pray that means pregnancy this cycle and a healthy baby November 2009. If I was pregnant this cycle we'd be due November 5th 2009.

I will hold the stick up in the air trying to imagine a line there...like if I imagine a line there it means I am pregnant haha... I think you can always see an imaginary line if you really want to.

Jeremy says I need a support group for this addiction...