Today I did not go to work. I couldn't. I woke up feeling nauseous, tired, and grieving...any one of these things in themselves would not have propelled me to put my wonderful new job in jeopardy...but together I just couldn't go today. . . the thought of having to face the world today was too much... I kept thinking of the baby shower last night, all the pregnant women, learning that one of my dear friends is pregnant...a reminder of my empty womb...Out of all the women there I believe only myself and another friend were not pregnant or have kids already...
I kept thinking, Lord...you have the power, you have the power to do anything...even with all my problems. . .
I cried all day long. . . then Jeremy played yahtzee with me and I laughed so much, and helped snap me out of my self pity....hopefully tomorrow will start fresh and I will wake up feeling great and excited to go to my awesome job.
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I hope you did wake up refreshed and excited about your job this morning. Jess, my heart aches for you and with you. I will continue to beg God on your behalf!
Jess I ache for you as well.
God Please help Jessica through this time. I ask that she would not feel you as distant, but close. I pray that she will feel your love pouring out on her and that you can make her content in every circumstance. I do not understand why it is this way and I pray Lord that You would give her this desire and do it quickly. Be the lifter of her head.
love you!
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