This cycle is fourteen months of trying..fourteen months of waiting....fourteen months of hopes deferred and deferred and deferred. Jeremy says I'm not patient, enough...and maybe I'm not...I seem to be ok most of the time, but at random moments or the end of a failed cycle I get sad.
I am currently in this cycle's two weeks waiting. . . 4 days past ovulation.... Praise God I ovulated again. We had sex around the right times...I laid on my back for at least twenty minutes afterwords...but then we've done everything humanly possible before and still remain barren...
Right now everything hurts...my boobs hurt, my back hurts, my ovaries hurt, my female organs hurt...
The worst thing about two weeks waiting is the possibility you could be pregnant, and the fear that you are not pregnant yet another cycle. . . and if you are pregnant you want to avoid certain activities...and you wish you knew one way or the other so you could engage in those activities...like having a glass of wine.
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Praying...
Oh Jessica I am praying this will be the cycle.
Jess, I too hope and pray that this is your month. I am 6dpo today, so we are pretty close(again!). If you need anyone to talk to or just to vent to, I am here! I will say a prayer right now...
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